Why It’s Hard

(The essence of this page is more or less correct, but the details need to be rewritten in light of my present understanding.)

Months ago, in my post Initiation, I said there was a reason that I had to fight for the knowledge, abilities and connections that I now have and that I’d get around to explaining it eventually. Tonight is eventually.

There are a lot of reasons that I’ve had a hard time. That I came here to do hard things is certainly one of them, but there are two basic reasons that I’ve had to fight for perception and understanding. The first is that I, along with several other souls in my node, intentionally took on negative associations and burdens before we incarnated. These burdens would give us the right to heal their cause in the world, should we develop the ability to do so. Think of it as the higher-dimensional (and often literal) equivalent of incarnating into a family with a bad history so you have the right to heal that history. We were very careful in taking on these burdens, measuring them against our capacity to hold them versus our capacities to retain and manifest our soul identities. Energies, positive and negative, were hard won and carefully balanced so that we could do our work without succumbing to it. Unfortunately there is the second reason. We were betrayed. We expected the support of many positive beings of the Earth energy system. What’s more we didn’t expect that they would actively interfere with us and our work. When we incarnated, the energies that we had carefully balanced were over-whelmed by positive beings and intelligences that had decided that it would be highly inconvenient if we attained awareness of our selves and purpose.

The idea of positive and negative is very simplistic. I generally use it to draw a dichotomy between that which predominantly feeds from and controls those that are held to be separate from the self (negative) and that which predominantly manifests from all being and does not seek control (positive). There is really an infinite, multi-dimensional spectrum, but negative and positive are a useful shorthand.

The beings and intelligences that betrayed us were more connected to all being than to predation and control, but still couldn’t deal with the massive changes to the rules that govern the Earth energy system that I and the node of souls I incarnated with wanted to allow into being. So they jammed our systems and called in negative entities and intelligences to distract and hold us back. Every piece of karma and every old timeline was dragged up and thrown back at us. Even false ones generated if we’d dealt with all the real ones that had come to the surface at the time.

I’ve since learned that many souls incarnate as part of a broad plan managed by one or more positive being or intelligences. They get support and guidance within the plan and they have a soul agreement to follow it. This is not what my node chose to do. We came to allow the greatest spiritual/energetic freedom and true self knowledge, without restriction or ideology. There were not many within the Earth system that liked that idea.

It took me a long time to get to a level of ability and acuity of perception that we could deal with the positive interference that we had not planned for. I’m still dealing with it.

I don’t think about what happened in terms of persecution. We just tried to do something they weren’t ready for. I do have an amount of disdain for the blustering, indignant “Follow the Rules!” mentality I get off a lot of the Earth system energy beings who have a problem with me. I have a history as a spiritual trickster with that kind of hierarchy based being, but mostly I just wish they would leave me alone so I could continue to allow space for broader and deeper kinds of consciousness to come into our world.

The text of this page was taken from my post “Why It’s Hard.

2 Responses to “Why It’s Hard”

  1. (Lucretia Heart) Says:

    This– makes sense on SO many levels…

    Um… yeah. I’m not saying I’m with your soul group, because I don’t know anything about that. However, when you talk about taking on the negative karmic lessons in order to have the right to go in and change things for the better from “inside the system,” I feel as if I know what you mean. But THIS:

    “We were betrayed. We expected the support of many positive beings of the Earth energy system.”

    –gave me an odd quiver.

    As did this:

    “So they jammed our systems and called in negative entities and intelligences to distract and hold us back. Every piece of karma and every old timeline was dragged up and thrown back at us. Even false ones generated if we’d dealt with all the real ones that had come to the surface at the time.”

    HA! How carefully have you scrutinized my blog? DING DING DING!

    Something’s clicking in my head. Don’t know if that means anything or not. Let’s just say I believe you. It fits. It makes sense to me almost instinctively.

    Thank you for writing this.

    ~ Lucretia

  2. wildrote Says:

    You’re welcome, Lucretia. I pay quite close attention to your blogs. Your recent post on a sense of mission was very gratifying. I have no abduction memories or evidence, so I make no real claims in that regard, but I could very genuinely say that the particular definition of mission that you outlined has defined the course of my life. I intend to write a post on it when I can.

    The elements of this post that you are reacting to are very symptomatic of beings who’s nature is to change the Earth system. By that I don’t exclusively mean genetic hybrids, but also people with energy bodies and souls that are partially or totally from other reality systems/planets. From everything that I know about you I am fairly sure that you fall into that category.

    I have another post that you might find of interest. It expands on the nature of the positive and negative intelligences that I referenced in this post: https://wildrote.wordpress.com/2010/07/06/the-subtle-conflict-of-positive-and-negative-intelligences/

    Beings from other reality systems come to Earth and say “There is so much suffering! If we just changed this system over here everything else would fix itself.” Changing how the Earth system functions is not desired by the local authorities, and most of the locals don’t like the idea to much either. There are both good and very bad reasons for that, but I’ll write about that later if at all. beyond that, there is what I can only call immune response from some Earth energy beings toward beings from other systems of existence. Most of the elementally and organically based consciousness and spirits don’t mind me, but the ones that work with human consciousness just really don’t like me that much.

    Addendum: Some of the interfering beings I’m talking about are really native to Earth. Some of them are on many world at the same time. Positive and negative intelligences are the later, while a lot of more individual human like beings are the former.

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