Posts Tagged ‘Karma’

Where I’ve Been and Where I’m Going

March 7, 2013

I have been traveling through a real darkness over the last months.

I feel like I am coming out of it now. It’s been very difficult, but I know it will make my work better. It’s a sign of who I wish to work with. My clients are going to look into my eyes and see “that man knows the pain that I am feeling.” It’s a sign of who I want to be. I want to be able to look into my clients eyes and say “I know the pain you are feeling.”

I have to thank Laura Burns and Patricia Wilson of Hatha Girls for helping me through the last leg of my ongoing journey. As I’ve said before they are the real deal, powerful healers and mediums, and I wouldn’t be where I am today in terms of my development or my life if not for them. Working with them has not only helped me through this, but also helped me to develop tools that will help to protect me from the negative and wounded energies I need to work with and keep me from burning out in the future.

I have been able to choose tools to bolster and enrich my work that I previously could not because of my karmic history. I have been freed to improve my work in ways I couldn’t before. Months ago I asked my guides for “a practice that gave me separation from the unalloyed process. A gateway that I would have to choose to enter, instead of an unbidden power.” I see this as a continuation of that quest. I have spent years learning to hold an inner fire in my hands. Now, because I have moved through another part of my self, I can learn to hold that fire in a new way.

When you are afraid or uncomfortable with your light, your truth or your darkness, then those aspects of your being will make others uncomfortable. When those aspects of your being seduce and beguile you, then they will seduce and beguile others. When those aspects of your being have become transparent, neither sought nor rejected, but held like seeds in an open hand, then they will grow and bear gifts for you and all those in your life.

I have chosen another journey for myself. It feels good.

Protection: Physical Pain in the Place of Spiritual Infestation

May 30, 2012

I am often told that I am protected by many spirits, beings and layers of energy at all times. I think this is true because I feel them there at this point in my life and looking back I can see the ways in which I have been favored and cared for. In the past I had great difficulty accepting the idea that I had this kind of protection in my life for several reasons, the most prominent among them being that I have been in physical pain for much of my life. Other reasons include my sensitivity to various physicalities, such as light, chemicals, sound, crowds, other peoples emotions, etc., but the pain has been the most irreconcilable for me. How could I be so protected and loved if I have been subjected to such pain?

The answers to this question has become clearer to me recently. I say answers intentionally because there is no one answer that explains or covers every situation that I am trying to address. I will talk about several of those answers, but never all.

I experience physical pain and discomfort in place of the influence and infestation of negative beings and forces. Some of these beings and forces are internally present because of my spiritual and family history. They are inherited as a debt that must be ended. Some of these beings and forces I will encounter externally in my daily life and spiritual journey.

The negative beings and influences that manifest from spiritual and family karma or debt are very insidious on Earth because humans lose their memories while they are here. If a human can even realize they are being hurt or manipulated by something that is not part of them there is still the hurtle of finding the internal hook, or history that allows these beings and forces to attach to the human being.

Before entering my current life, I think I chose that instead of directly experiencing the control, manipulation and psychic invasion of negative forces, I would experience them as physical pain. This pain would allow me to know that something was wrong, but would also protect me from being possessed, controlled or damaged. I do not think that I can be without pain and still clearly perceive what I need to be doing at this stage in my development. The volume on that signal cannot yet be adjusted. If it was silenced I could not access the negative realms that must be healed within me and my family.

This realization has the strange consequence of making me thankful that I only experience the physical pain. I have learned that physical pain is so transitory. The kind of emotional and mental suffering that these negative forces create is unimaginably more destructive, both for the individual who experiences them and for those closest to that person.

“Deeper, deeper, somewhere in the deep there is a light*”

September 29, 2011

I think that the law of attraction is precisely the mystical equivalent of fundamentalist prosperity gospel. I think both of those things are cancers on genuinely transformative spiritualities.

Being depressed or having bad things happen to you doesn’t make you a bad person or less spiritual than anyone else. It’s a candy floss theology that has more to do with toys than wisdom or maturity. It will rot you out from the inside.

Everything my guides have ever taught me has been about transcending the image, the feeble shadow of reality that we carry within our minds. You are more than your mind. You are more than this time and place. Please do not become excessively engrossed because this is the momentary image before your eyes. Remember, listen, hold to what is felt and what cannot be silenced or ignored. Everything is waiting for you if you can loosen your grip just a little bit. End the cycle of insecurity that keeps you here in this one body, in this one time, in this one place. If you want to understand and transcend the conditions of your life I think you are going to be more enlightened by the lucid recollection of the conditions that brought you here than by trying to build a mansion on a foundation of sand and illusion.

* I stole that line from a Kate bush song.

“He is a Mystic”

June 14, 2010

Stolen from one of Border Zone author Arsen Darnay’s recent posts comparing the Tao with Sufism:

“The Sufi is an individual who believes that by practicing alternate detachment and identification with life, he becomes free. He is a mystic because he believes that he can become attuned to the purpose of all life. He is a practical man because he believes that this process must take place within normal society.” – The Sufis, by Idries Shah

I doubt I qualify as a practical man, but I will draw a comparison to my post on Karma:

“In other words, to manifest your karma so you can clear it, you have to engage in systems which, on at least some level, have the potential to generate more karma. Once manifest, the karma can be addressed. This tends to create cycles in which a person will increasingly become engrossed by one of these human journeys and their karma associated with it until a critical point is reached, conscious recognition of the karmic patterns occurs and the person begins the process of ending the karma. Sometime after the karma is ended, the person will begin another cycle, possibly even with the same aspect of the human journey, but with all new karma or a deeper layer of the same karma.”

In other, much more succinct and mellifluous words, “…by practicing alternate detachment and identification with life, we become free.”

Burning Karma

May 19, 2010

“Repeating the Past” With Peter Watts

April 14, 2010

I never cease to savour the irony in my enjoyment of Peter Watts and his writing. His novels and short stories are some of the most unforgiving lenses through which I have ever viewed the human condition, as well as some of the best hard science fiction that I have ever read, yet, in the right light (or the wrong light, depending on one’s point of view) they eloquently make certain metaphysical points that elude normal explanation.

An example of this is Watts’ very short story (a single page), Repeating the Past. The metaphysical question is why one might choose to enter the process of reincarnation and karma. The answer, because we never really learn anything that we didn’t live, or that didn’t become part of us. Go have a read. It will only take a minute.

PS Peter Watts was recently convicted in what seems to me to be a miscarriage of justice, if not the law in question. I didn’t post about it at the time because I really couldn’t deal with all the bad stuff I was reading about in the world. If you would like more information about his conviction, the trial and events leading up to it I encourage you to go Watts’ blog or view his new interview at


April 5, 2010

Every kind of karma is just a repetitious higher dimensional energy pattern that souls and energy bodies carry with them. Karma is generated when a soul manifests, such as in physical incarnation, and then, through intense involvement with that manifestation, begins to identify with and absorb the patterns of that manifest system (human existence). The soul will then carry these patterns forward through successive lives until the soul, or one of its manifestations, truly transcends the pattern at the higher dimensional state where it is carried. Transcendence of these patterns can be achieved in many forms and by different means, but the essence is carried in Albert Einsteins often heard “A problem cannot be solved at the level of consciousness that created it.” Many souls must incarnate numerous times to grow beyond any individual pattern of karma, their physical form unconsciously confronting the pattern over and over again, until the solution and resolution of that pattern have become ingrained at the soul level. Factors that can accelerate this process include conscious recognition of the pattern, conscious desire to end the pattern, preferably made manifest in speech, writing, or symbolic act, and the reciprocation of the these factors from any other souls that are part of the karma pattern. Additionally, the assistance of an individual capable of consciously interacting with the higher dimensional realities where karma resides and who knows certain techniques for ending it, will drastically accelerate the process.

The manifestation of karma within a human life does not occur evenly from birth to death. Karma is a cyclical or repetitive energy pattern completely stored in a higher dimensional state. To manifest, the structure and complexity of the human life must be similar to the structure and complexity of the karma pattern. Only very potent karma, or karma based on a physical energy, can manifest a birth, simply because the structure and levels of complexity are too divergent for most patterns to transfer from the soul to the physical level. As a person’s life develops, physically, psychologically, intellectually, emotionally, socially and energetically, more karma can manifest. This process is aided by the structure of the human system of incarnation, which is designed to provide, wherever possible, the opportunities that each soul needs to further develop. At least, that is how it’s supposed to work on a good day, when there isn’t interference.

To be simplistic, there are two general ways in which human beings deal with their karma, bottom-up and top-down. Most humans work from the bottom-up. They live out their karma again and again within their life and throughout each successive incarnation until the lessons are imprinted within the soul. Bottom-up takes a long, long, long, long time to work, and it really chews you up on the way. The only advantages are that you don’t need any special training or to work at being conscious, you just follow the script. The top-down approach is much less common, being represented by most of the worlds sacred and mystic traditions that involve any amount of inner work and development. Techniques such as meditation, ritual, intent and occasionally the use of entheogens begin processes that, among other things, allow the soul to end and erase its own patterns of karma and subsequently their manifestations in the physical world. Top-down is much faster, by which I mean it will probably only take most of your current life to work through the major issues. It also doesn’t chew you up as much. It still does chew you up because it is usually a difficult and demanding process to deal with your karma. It takes a lot of patience, stamina, compassion, humility and acceptance, as well as intelligence, sensitivity and a continued awareness of your life patterns to address karma. Most top-downers are just bottom-uppers who have achieved enough consciousness to know they don’t want to go through their karma yet again. There’s really no other reason to put up with the trial and effort of it. Keep in mind that top-down and bottom-up are just two stereotypical extremes on a an infinite spectrum and that any real person will fall somewhere between the two, if that spectrum is even valid to describe their life. I’ll provide an example to demonstrate this.

I think it is very difficult (not impossible) to recognize and address karma until it has somehow manifested in your life. You allow karma to manifest by living a human life. By human I mean bearing the pattern inherent to our seven chakras that represent the psychophysical, energetic and social development of a human being throughout life. Put more simply.

1st Chakra: Develop your physical body, go running, take up tai chi or boxing.
2nd Chakra: Get a girlfriend/boyfriend, join a social sport, learn how to give a speech, go back to school.
3rd Chakra: Develop yourself professionally, exercise your personal authority.
4th Chakra: Enter a more intimate level of a relationship, connect with another person on a deep emotional level.
5th Chakra: Hold a higher vision (archetypal, mythical, ancentral) and manifest it, artistically, socially or even physically.
6th Chakra: Take up a new spiritual or mystic practice.
7th Chakra: Go fish.

In other words, to manifest your karma so you can clear it, you have to engage in systems which, on at least some level, have the potential to generate more karma. Once manifest, the karma can be addressed. This tends to create cycles in which a person will increasingly become engrossed by one of these human journeys and their karma associated with it until a critical point is reached, conscious recognition of the karmic patterns occurs and the person begins the process of ending the karma. Sometime after the karma is ended, the person will begin another cycle, possibly even with the same aspect of the human journey, but with all new karma or a deeper layer of the same karma.

Though I have used a specific term “karma,” which for me is a very precise kind of energetic from, there are many other kinds of past life issue which follow very similar patterns. Negative timelines and acquired dense or negative energies are two common kinds. Also remember that I am ignoring the role of energy beings, forces and intelligences that can often play a profound roll in the causation and resolution of karma and other past life issues. I do this because to include these would geometrically increase the complexity of the topic. More on the topic of karma/past life issues and on the beings, forces and intelligences that might interact with it can predominantly be found under the “Energy Medicine” tag.

The specific procedures for ending karma and negative timelines can be found in my post: To Heal the Past and Guard the Future: 1

To Heal the Past and Guard the Future: 1

July 30, 2009

Both of these tasks occupy a great deal of my time, at many scales and frequencies. Aside from the many physical, emotional and intellectual ways in which this is accomplished, there are several energetic experiences and techniques which form the basis of much of my work. I have avoided talking about these subjects because I was afraid that I could not do them justice. The technical complexity is immense at the intellectual level and there can be truly unforseen complications at any step of the techniques and experiences I describe.

Traumas from present incarnations require somewhat different methods to be healed, usually what any good reiki practitioner or energy healer can help you with. That being said, many traumas from a present incarnation have roots in past incarnations. Healing those origins can be more complicated and challenging.

There are two primary kinds of negative influence from traumas in past incarnations. These are karma and negative/non-optimal timelines. Karma, to take Alan Watts definition, means action. Karma, as defined within my work, is any negative action/energy that is being continued by the individual from the past in the present. Karma can be from the present incarnation, but past incarnations are a much more likely source. Karma is usually exhibited, at least externally, in repeated life patterns, such as loss of romantic relationships through a particular issue, failure in business or education, repetition of self destructive behaviors, etc. These patterns will often seem to be beyond the individuals control, and often on the physical level they may be. Persecution and recrimination will not address the heart of the issue, as it lies far beyond the level of conscious awareness and is far too complicated for most people to deal with effectively at an intuitive level. Karma also manifests as latent action or potential, rather than obvious external patters. This becomes more of a concern when extensive energy work is undertaken.

If you have karma, barring some exceptional cases, it is something that you are doing, not something that is being done to you by someone else. Karma is usually personal in my experience. It can be shared, but usually only between a small number of people who were directly involved in the events surrounding its creation. As in most energy work, treating, or even recognizing your own problems can be difficult or impossible. Seeking help from those you trust is paramount.

Treatment of karma takes many forms. I will be discussing my own. To me, it usually appears as a dark, slightly transparent cloud within the energy body, as if some set of motions had been blurred together by a time laps camera. Before treatment can begin, it is important to determine if the bearer of the karma must know what caused it before it can be released. I may know this intuitively, but asking the Universal Healing Energy or another suitable guide is the safest and most common method. Please see my post on guide communication if you haven’t already read about that technique. If the bearer most know the nature of the karma before it can be released then a series of question must be used to reach the necessary level of detail for understanding to occur. Assuring that the genesis of karma took place in a past incarnation, the present incarnation, or between incarnation is the first step. Next, determine if any of the bearers present relations, such as immediate family and friends were involved in creating the karma (Edit: in this or another incarnation. Or between incarnations). From years of experience I can say that this is often the case. Edit: Souls that have karma together often incarnate together. Continue by determining if the karma was caused by injury. If so, was it to the bearer, or did he or she cause it to someone else? Continue in this way until enough is known so that the bearer can recognize and truly release the karma. This process will not always be necessary. Some karma can be released without knowledge of its cause. Always check with your guides.

From here I have seen treatment take two paths, though I am sure many more exist. The first is my usual approach, which is to energetically observe the karma and to either direct my own energies, focusing on it’s complete release and dissolution from the bearer, or to ask the Universal Healing Energy to guide my energies in releasing and completely ending the karma. The second path is the one that my mother most often uses, which is a more programing like approach based on detailing steps of karma release and removal and asking the UHE to carry these out. I’ll relate this approach in another post or by request.

A timeline is the trans-personal energy of a relatively linear series of interrelated events. Timelines can be from a present incarnation, but are more often the result of traumas, negative energies and so on from past incarnations. An example of this would be that in many past incarnations I caused injury, intentionally and unintentionally. Within each of those incarnations this initial injury resulted in a series of events which altered my own timeline, the timelines of those around me and, less often, of the world that I inhabited. These many timelines can be viewed as separate or as one, depending on the perspective and abilities of the observer. Timelines usually include many people, but because the energy is trans-personal, only the individuals that actually need healing must to be included in the treatment. The effects of timelines are even more variable than karma, so making list of patterns symptoms to look for would be misleading. You just need to ask, or to know.

I see timelines as having a very specific structure. Understanding that structure was important in my initial attempts to heal them with my own abilities, and even in my guided attempts. A timeline appears in my sight as initially just a line, tube or thread of light. To the left side I will always see the root of the timeline, a device which exists outside the causal reality and anchors the energetic significance of the events that transpire within. To the right the timeline seems to disappear into a semi-transparent field of energy. This field represents transpersonal influences of the timeline in energetic reality. The time line itself has structure as well. Looking more closely, it becomes apparent that a matrix runs through the energy of the timeline. I call this a causality matrix, named for its purpose, which is to maintain the dominance of whatever system of causality exists in the reality that timeline transpires in.

To heal a timeline can be relatively simple or very complicated. Sometimelines must be understod before they can be healed, particularly if they involve specific individuals that you are working with, or if they centre on great atrocities. Use the same method of questioning that I described for use with karma. Once the timeline is understood, or if it can be treated without knowing it’s cause, the next step is to search for negative energies, intelligences and beings within the timeline. Any of these will subvert any attempt to heal the timeline, and were likely the catalyst for the negative timeline itself. There is no contradiction in that these beings are present in the past, considering that energy in its natural state exists outside time. If present, these negative forces must be removed. From experience I know that it is very difficult to remove all negative influences from a timeline. Asking for help and guidance from positive forces in usually best. There are some very powerful negative intelligences that cannot be taken into custody, as usually happens to negative energies. These intelligences must simply be pushed out of the timeline and all access points, actual or potential be sealed to prevent their return. I will discuss methods of dealing with these intelligences more deeply in another post. Once negative energies have ben removed from the timeline the actual healing can begin.

To heal the timeline, it is necessary to temporarily disengage the causality matrix, even though all that is usually being altered is the energy of the time line the matrix would that in place as well as the physicality. Once the matrix is disengaged, the energies of the timeline must be optimally realigned from beginning to end. As the process is occurring, the frequency of the timeline’s root must be changed to match the timelines’s new alignment. This will take more energy that most other aspects of this technique, but nothing extraordinary. From there continue the realignment of energies in the other direction, to the transpersonal energies of the timeline. send the changes out into this field. If you understand how to heal timelines at an intuitive level none of this knowledge is necessary at the intellectual level.

My next post will detail a method of guarding the future through the optimization of probability-scapes.