Posts Tagged ‘Insectile’

Triptych #9

July 24, 2011

Four Threads

June 29, 2011

I have a very strong desire to provide background and context for everything I say about the energetic or stranger side of my life, but acknowledging my humanity and my own weaknesses, providing that context and background takes an amount of energy and focus that I just don’t have right now, and that I am not likely to have any time in the near future. With that being said, my purpose in this post is to provide basic information about some things I feel that I need to talk about, primarily my genetic make up and some physical or material events that might have affected it.

There are at least four threads that run through my physical and energy bodies in this world. I’m sure that there are more, but I don’t know about them and they may not be as influential. I’ve talked about two of these threads as being human and reptilian. The other two are insectile and goblin. These threads are a mixed blessing at best. I see and understand the world in ways distinct from those of the beings around me, but these threads clash, within my body and my being.

I wrote about what I mean by reptilian previously here:

When I say insectile I mean the mantis like beings that UFO abducties and experiencers occasionally refer to. I have no way of speaking about the nature of every beings that appears in this way, but the ones that I have energetically interacted with most and seem connected to me are not very nice and seem defined by an obsessive pursuit of personal flawlessness. This leads to a lack of compassion or empathy for other beings and themselves.

When I say goblin I mean a variety of what I can only refer to as fairy. I found a description from the Wikipedia entry on goblins, of all places, that I feel sums up what I mean very clearly: “In “The Goblin Field” (Moldova), Goblins were described as 2-3 feet tall, thin and brown. Most were bald and “if there were females among the group they could not be distinguished from the males”. They seemed to exist in two realms, one physical and one spirit. They were fiercely loyal and allied with particular sorcerer or witch tribes, whom they protected and served as an equally allied tribe rather than servants or slaves. “This perception might seem a bit strange to any not accustomed to the goblin outlook” because the goblins often did what might be considered slave work for very little in return. They could be called by an allied individual or group, summoned by spell, or called to bargain at particular places by individuals or groups not known to them. Because of their power they were much sought after, but because of the corruption of mankind, rarely found. Crossing them was a thing to avoid as they had refined a grudge to a fine art. They could be fierce and mind-numbingly frightening, and only the hardiest of souls were sent to strike a bargain with them. However they had a side which few ever saw, which was their great love for those who were able to create an understanding and friendship with them. At the passing of such a person, they would treat the body with proper respect and then quietly weep.”

I feel the need to give other human beings the opportunity to open their minds to this, for their own wellbeing as much as for my own peace. I think that many, many people have a more diverse genetic background than they are aware of. I have been forced through my energy work to confront these aspects of my being within my self and my family, or suffer by the lack of that self knowledge. A brief example of this would be that recently more of my goblin DNA was activated so that I could create something that derives from their way of relating to existence. However, adjusting to this activation was mentally and physically painful because reptilian-human hybrid DNA and goblin DNA are not compatible. My mother and I spoke and realized we were having the same symptoms. I told her about the Goblin DNA activation and the rest came out by process of her surrogating and both of us asking questions of the beings that spoke through her, which are always related to the problems we are experiencing. We then identified what needed to be changed to allow compatibility and asked our guides to guide our energies in making those changes.

I think that I am a result of a natural lineage of human-nonhuman DNA that may also have been experimented upon to enhance the quantity and diversity of that non-human DNA. I was conceived via in vitro fertilization at the Hallam Medical Centre (now part of the London Women’s Clinic) in London, England, cir. 1986-87. I don’t have any physical evidence or knowledge of any illicit activities or strange events occurring at that facility during that time or any other, but given everything I have read and learned over the last five years I consider it a possibility that something was done to my parents genetic material as it was used to create me.

I do not want anyone to believe what I have written here. It would be unreasonable for another person to think what I am saying is true without either physical evidence or traversing the energetic experiences and personal health problems witch have brought me to the point where I can say these things with a straight face. At most I hope that my intentions will be considered sincere. In an ideal world I would relate the experiences that have brought me to this point in detail, but they flow in a way that escapes the written word. Pinning them down into narrative has always been an awkward, time consuming and draining task that I was never satisfied with at my best and that is certainly beyond me at the present.

I hope that there is something that others can take from what I am relating, more than an unused oddity.

Paths of Evolution

June 13, 2009

This post contains information I’m less sure of than usual. I’m writing it because it may be of use to some people now, but I hope that my understanding of the situation will not be taken as authoritative. Most of the experiences that I’m drawing on to write this material are what made me most question my sanity. Indefinite, immaterial forces and souls are much easier to deal with than the specifics of alien life.

I’ll be writing about three paths of evolution that roughly correspond to “aliens” that have been described by UFO experiencers, meditators, shamans and other’s who enter a more open and aware state of consciousness. Each of these paths represents a way that certain souls have chosen to develop, one or more physical planets or worlds (on a number of different vibrational frequencies), and a species. Given that each path represents so much I can easily say that exceptions are the rule. Not all members of the three species are on the path I associate with them, nor are all individuals on a given world on that world’s path.

The three species are humans, reptilians and insectiles. I’ll briefly touch on greys, but I have very little contact with them as individuals or as a species. None of the paths I describe here is more right than another. All have been corrupted for negative purposes in various times and places.

for the sake of starting from the familiar, I’ll begin with our world and our species, assuming you are a human on Earth. Each path of evolution describes a way of being through which a species and the souls of its individuals will optimally develop in complexity and the fulfillment of their potentials. Almost all humans are on what I would call a path of empathy, as are most of the parallel worlds and dimensions that are all Earth to a greater or lesser extent. Though each person, and world, has their own path and way of being that can be completely unique, as a species our highest range of perception and ability tends to manifests when we are able to let go of separation and recognize our unity with the all being, material and energetic. There are many kinds of humans on many different worlds and Earth is not what I would call our truest point of origin, but I do think our physical bodies evolved here.

The next path is the tendency of reptilian beings. I call it the path of maya, which is a sanskrit word that is usually used to describe our physical world, but literally means illusion, magic and creative power, according to Alan Watts at least. From what I have been told by my guides, and heard from other people who have talked about the reptilians, I don’t think they have a true home world anymore. Their path is to evolve by and through what they can create and control, either positive or negative. To those on a well developed path of empathy their ways usually seem to be helpful, often beautiful illusion at best, or very destructive lies at worst. This is because it is their way to create that which is seen as separate from all being. Most language is a very reptilian development in my eyes. There are very positive reptilians, but in the local context of Earth most seem to be quite negative.

The last path is the tendency of the insectiles. These beings are relatively rarely encountered in the Earth energetic system, but I have a long history with their species through many lives. Their path is difficult to describe. The best way I have been able to describe it is as the path of self-achievement. They tend to view each individual’s demonstrable skills and abilities as the highest ideal. what cannot be defined doesn’t fit into their perspective easily. That being said they usually have great mastery over what they do recognize. I know essentially nothing about their home world.

As I’ve said, I have very little experience with greys, but I can echo a cliche about them at least. I am not aware of a unified path of development for greys as a species. This implies to me that they are not a race that developed spontaneously.

I’ve personally had more experience with the Reptilians than any other race. Specifically some very negative ones working on Earth. Overall very reminiscent of the work of David Ick, which at the time I found disappointing because I didn’t want to be stark raving bonkers. I’ve never had a physical encounter and I’m highly skeptical of the physical presence of aliens within the average human’s vibrational frequency, but I don’t rule it out.