Posts Tagged ‘Energy Parasites’

Memories of Making the Earth

June 12, 2012

I’ve written about memories that I have from other incarnated lifetimes. I haven’t written very much about my memories from between incarnated lifetimes.

I have very explicit memories of being involved with some aspects of forming the Earth. I was one of millions of other beings involved in the process. Some beings, like Raven’s Eye who is the Bowl of the World were involved in much higher level activities, like weaving entirely new timelines to guide the formation of the whole Earth system. I and my working group were involved in much more specific and limited activities.

Explaining exactly what we were doing can be challenging. There is a relationship between consciousness and the form taken by physical reality that is very difficult to describe in the modern mental context. Every individual consciousness is like a nucleus, or porthole, or a light in the darkness, around which the material universe is tuned in. The physical world is not an illusion any more than a building that you choose to enter is an illusion, even though it may prevent you from seeing the larger world. The physical world has reality outside of the the observer, but that reality is not the physical world as we perceive it as human beings. It is only a “physical” world in that we are experiencing it that way.

What I and my working group built as excarnate beings were the threads of potential that could manifest through the progressive densities of materialized personal experience. We worked in higher dimensional levels of non-physical existence, altering potential fields, time-lines, threads of connection and other more complicated structures so that the physical world could be felt and experienced in the way that it now is, more or less. There are many areas and refinements to the process that we didn’t have anything to do with, mostly relating to human psychology and interaction.

Our area of specialty was material system stability and persistence. I remember with strange emotion how difficult it was to get certain aspects of the system tuned correctly. Having the necessary form and diffusion of water was very difficult for some reason. Water moderates environmental, thermal and biological reactions, but getting it to behave with the necessary characteristics was a great achievement. Insuring a stable magnetic field around the planet was tremendously important, but less challenging.

One of our other works was to assure the deep rigidity of biological life on Earth. Other groups were working genetic evolution, morphic stability and the fundamentals of biosystems on Earth. We were concerned with preventing the equivalent of ecological cancer, or the advent of homogenizing swarms, to use a science fictional term. We did this by encouraging extreme precision in cellular reproduction and more complex life function. This would discourage the kind of rampant mutation that would be necessary in order to co-op the entire diversity of other life systems. Our work was necessary because of the explicitly mathematical nature of material Earth life. In the energy systems I am more accustomed to inhabiting it would not have been necessary. In those systems a being of a relatively more developed nature and understanding simply can’t be limited, controlled or influenced by force. A being of a relatively less developed nature can be influenced, but only within the parameters of what they will allow for themselves, knowingly or unknowingly. There are essentially no restrictions on form in those realms because there is almost nothing you can do to another being against its will or inherent nature. On Earth, however, this is not the case. If there were not deep restrictions on physical form we would be inundated by controlling and converting agents, biological, chemical and mechanical, even electrical. The level of stability necessary for the development of the desired incarnate psycho-spiritual attributes would be impossible. Everything would be changing, warping and continuously tearing itself apart. All it would take is one amoral and extremely clever being to bend the world to his will.

I find Earth’s physical limitations on form very onerous. I feel within myself the capacity to change form, psycho-spiritually from my past existences between incarnations and genetically from the ancestry of my current incarnation. I use this inner knowing very much when I am working with clients. I energetically become what I need to be in order to help them. Most people loose themselves if they try to do that, but I am accustomed to being formless. It allows me to enter other people’s realities while retaining the necessary potency to bring change and healing. This also my life more difficult because when I am tired a tend to revert to diffuse and formless state. I usually call that “needing to be a cloud for a while” and it makes being with other human beings very difficult.

I have become accepting of my physical limitations as I have remembered more of why they exist. An example would be the reason I was chosen to be part of the working group on material systems stability for part of the Earth project. I was incarnated several times previously to a different system that had been overrun by invasive and self transforming biological agents. Calling it a war wouldn’t really do it justice. Life was at war with itself. I incarnated as a being that had been created by one of the technologically advanced species of this world. I was part of a new species designed by them to survive in these new conditions, to help them fight and survive and, ultimately, to continue their culture and the concept of individual conscious intelligence into the future should their race perish. I incarnated several times as one of these “future guards” so that I could experience the entire arc in their history. I fought when we were new and things were terrible. It looked like the end of the world.

Our form was generally akin to a spider made of pale bone. We had distinct heads more than a spider and our legs attached to an oblong central body with no abdomen. The number of legs was actually variable. My strongest memories are of having four legs, but I know others had more. We had been grown from aquatic creatures very much like a sea squirt, and this was the central conceit of our design. Nothing outside of the thorax was alive. The only living tissue in our bodies was safely protected behind many layers of thick bone. Our limbs were operated by the pumping of hydraulic fluid. A giant mass of muscle in the thorax, much like a heart pumped this fluid through out the body to create movement. Our senses were limited by our extensive shells, but we did have sight, extremely good hearing, or at least sense of vibration, and something that passed for smell. Sight was achieved through light pipes. Crystalline tubes that lead from the head back to the central nervous system in the thorax (our brains were a genetic bequeath from our creators, to carry on their way of being should they become extinct). Vibration sense was conducted by chambers inside the central body filled with delicate fibers in fluid. Smell is the most alien sense. It was achieved by combination of small patches of chemical sensitive chromatiphors on the shell with light pipes that would carry their changing colors into the central nervous system. Any kind of direct chemical or nervous contact for smell as in humans would have provided a direct route of access for our enemies. I could go on about our biology, but I have conveyed the central point that our very way of being was defined by denying access to invasive controlling agents.

I incarnated to this culture at least three or four times to experience the full arc of the part of their history in which they would actively face invasive self transforming biological agents. I was there from the beginning, when everything was terror and it looked like the end of the world, right to the end when indeed the world had been burned to the ground, but no pure strains of the enemy remained and we and the few other races that had survived were the only real monsters left in the world.

Because I carried that history I was able to give the product of its experience in the Earth process.


Betraying Trust I: Manipulation and Parasitism through Privilege, Knowledge and Ability

March 10, 2012

One of the central contentions and conflicts within the process of spiritual development is whether or not there is recognition among other human beings that one has achieved a higher state of being that engenders respect and devotion. Some mystics or healers are revered and become materially powerful by the recognition of others, whether it is genuinely deserved or not. Other mystics and healers, most in fact, regardless of their abilities, live in with little respect and little material control over their own lives or the lives of others.

I do not agree with the idea that people who develop their spirituality or their subtle abilities should be given more respect or trust than any other field of development. This is very similar to the way in which I do not think that medical doctors or scientists should have special morality or privilege conferred upon them. They are just human beings with an uncommon set of experiences. Beyond those special experiences they are  just as prone as anyone else to weakness, desire, prejudice, hate, shortsightedness, ignorance and the tendency to disregard that which is unfamiliar or unknown.

Two pertinent examples of systems or hierarchies that are invested by others with special morality and privilege and possess of themselves a deep knowledge of subtle reality are the priesthoods of Vajrayna Buddhism, more broadly known as Tibetan Buddhism, and some orders of the Vatican (Edit: I should have added any number of less well known cults, sects and movements to this list). This post deals exclusively with the former.

I have a mixed feelings toward Vajrayana Buddhism and Buddhism in general.  I very much recognize deep knowledge and understanding of reality, both subtle and gross, within various branches and teachings, but there is a hierarchy and a patriarchy within the organized monks, priesthood and teachings that is too often glossed over by Western devotees and admirers. Beyond these obvious discrepancies between some Buddhisms and modern Western morality, there are subtler issues of symbolic, ritual and spiritual meaning.

The position of privilege combined with subtle knowledge creates powerful temptations and opportunities to abuse the energies of others. I recently found a first hand account that provides a very complete and accurate picture of one form that this abuse can take. The woman’s account deals with a Buddhist monk of high standing having a hidden romantic relationship with a female student whose energies he seemed to use for himself. Vajrayana Buddhism is in no way the only system or hierarchy that produces such situations. I know that such circumstances can manifest themselves without any help from organizations or spiritual systems, but I feel there are inherent tendencies within Vajrayana that make it more prone to them as a whole. One aspect of my perception is that Vajrayana possesses great knowledge and insight into subtle reality, magic and the human being, but I do not believe that this kind of knowledge can be equated to morality. Subtle knowledge is like all other kinds of knowledge. It can be used for good or ill and sometimes seeing the difference is very difficult.

The first hand account can be found at the following link:

For a more complete treatise on some of the aspects of Vajrayana Buddhism that can disturb the modern Western sensibility and the subtle seeker with an egalitarian disposition, see The Shadow of the Dalai Lama: Sexuality, Magic and Politics in Tibetan Buddhism. The book can be found in its entirety at:

When I Was Young

April 11, 2009

I felt things clinging to my skin. Some of them were even inside me. I looked, but I never saw anything, just felt them clinging and moving.

Eventually I found that, if I moved my hands in this special way over my skin, I could peel them off and pull them out. They were dark and slimy, like giant shadowy slugs, but still I never saw them with my eyes. No one else ever saw them either, and no one noticed, or asked why I moved my hands in this special way. Why it looked like I was peeling layers off my body.

Eventually, when I was a little older, I told myself that the clinging things weren’t real and that they would just get worse if I payed attention to them. I learned to ignore them.

You can learn to ignore almost anything. I suggest you don’t.