Archive for May, 2012

Protection: Physical Pain in the Place of Spiritual Infestation

May 30, 2012

I am often told that I am protected by many spirits, beings and layers of energy at all times. I think this is true because I feel them there at this point in my life and looking back I can see the ways in which I have been favored and cared for. In the past I had great difficulty accepting the idea that I had this kind of protection in my life for several reasons, the most prominent among them being that I have been in physical pain for much of my life. Other reasons include my sensitivity to various physicalities, such as light, chemicals, sound, crowds, other peoples emotions, etc., but the pain has been the most irreconcilable for me. How could I be so protected and loved if I have been subjected to such pain?

The answers to this question has become clearer to me recently. I say answers intentionally because there is no one answer that explains or covers every situation that I am trying to address. I will talk about several of those answers, but never all.

I experience physical pain and discomfort in place of the influence and infestation of negative beings and forces. Some of these beings and forces are internally present because of my spiritual and family history. They are inherited as a debt that must be ended. Some of these beings and forces I will encounter externally in my daily life and spiritual journey.

The negative beings and influences that manifest from spiritual and family karma or debt are very insidious on Earth because humans lose their memories while they are here. If a human can even realize they are being hurt or manipulated by something that is not part of them there is still the hurtle of finding the internal hook, or history that allows these beings and forces to attach to the human being.

Before entering my current life, I think I chose that instead of directly experiencing the control, manipulation and psychic invasion of negative forces, I would experience them as physical pain. This pain would allow me to know that something was wrong, but would also protect me from being possessed, controlled or damaged. I do not think that I can be without pain and still clearly perceive what I need to be doing at this stage in my development. The volume on that signal cannot yet be adjusted. If it was silenced I could not access the negative realms that must be healed within me and my family.

This realization has the strange consequence of making me thankful that I only experience the physical pain. I have learned that physical pain is so transitory. The kind of emotional and mental suffering that these negative forces create is unimaginably more destructive, both for the individual who experiences them and for those closest to that person.

Anomalous Disappearances in Wilderness Areas and Parks

May 28, 2012

A disproportionately large number of people disappear in national parks and wilderness areas. Many of these people go missing and are later found under circumstances that I can only describe as anomalous.

The follow is a Coast to coast AM interview with a man named David Paulides. He has written two volumes on the topic of anomalous disappearances in national parks and wilderness areas. They are titled Missing 411 – Eastern United States: Unexplained disappearances of North Americans that have never been solved, and Missing 411 – Western United States & Canada: Unexplained Disappearances in North America.

I would highly recommend listening to the interview bellow. The details of each case are fascinating and fundamentally point toward things in this world that our culture does not understand or acknowledge.

Note: I first heard of David Paulides and Missing 411 in this post on The Stench of Truth.

Appointments Page

May 13, 2012

I have a new Appointments Page to the top right of this screen. I’ve had an ad with the same text on this blog for a long time, but I’ve never put it on the front page before.

I’m returning to regular appointments with clients after a sabbatical. I’ve already had a number of people contact me, but it seems right to show the kind of work I’m doing and let them know they can seek me out if they wish.

Arsen Darnay’s Notes on Rebirth

May 10, 2012

I find Arsen beautiful because he won’t let go. He carries that mentation, that examination of the past, present and future, with him until he has worn it down to its barest lucidity. He doesn’t release himself to walk in the half-formed worlds of resonance and shadow that I do. That’s also a quality that frustrates me sometimes, but as he writes there is more lucidity and less frustration.

His most recent post that deeply caught my eye is More Notes on Rebirth.

The part of most interest to me is this:

“Origen ultimately derives this cycling from the operations of free will—which is at least a coherent sort of doctrine. It assumes that each of us, individually, caused our own fall rather than, as it were, getting our original sin by mere genetic inheritance. The alternative, that of being created in a fallen state, at birth, is, for me, incoherent. In the latter instance all we must try to explain is why we don’t remember the initial act that sent us to a realm where, every morning, we have to put on socks.

Just a handful of those who remember having lived one life before also remember the intermediate state between lives in another and always rather magical realm. And some very few among them also recall having been urged by one or several angels to come back to earth again. Why? Because, evidently, they needed to do so to develop further. Those are interesting cases. In most others, it just happens.

So what does all this suggest? Is the model developmental? If so, the engineering of such intricate machines as bodies would not have been done by the fallen creatures themselves but would be part of the divine plan (which, of course, is the orthodox teaching, but I find it hard to believe); this is a big subject; I will have to enlarge on it later. Something more complex is going on here. I suspect, however, that I’ll have to wait until my own border crossing before the structure that brings us here and receives us back over there—and what’s really behind it—becomes clearer. I’ll put this in that notebook I’ll take with me when I die.” – Arsen Darnay

It is a good thing to hear the way that you see the world, more or less, spoken in new or different words.

I have not finished my own commentary, but the first reaction from my own experiences that I want to articulate is this. Holding memories between radically different states of being is a triumphant act of intention, effort and transformation. As there are many shades of existence within physical reality there are many and more shades of existence outside of physical reality. The journey from the origin of our souls is so long, covers so many transformations and changes that to recover that knowledge is the work of a lifetime. I do think there is an origin for every soul, as there is for every individual and particular being, no matter how complex and extensive. I have glimpsed my own.

Searching for maps in the Memory Palace

May 5, 2012

I Am a Man of Space

May 5, 2012

The space that makes music. The chamber that holds the laser’s light. The pregnant pause and the open ended question that enshrine the realms that could never be held within the confines of the declarative or the referential, but only the allusive.

I live within the bell of the Earth, but I am not slowly-growing green life of sun-wrapped light. I am telluric, the hidden music of the magnetic and the insubstantial. I am an alien chthonia. The inner and the outer night, a band of light between, but my own light is the inner fire. It speaks of its own and stands upon no other, no foothold or stronghold of the will. Spirit, moving of itself, creature of smoke and fire in service to god, the breath of life.

“Always, like this: as a single collision of raw bones on flesh”

May 4, 2012

“The truth has become as immediately hard and real as these brown bone shards themselves, from a hip, a leg, a spine: one from a small child, other bones being once part of a young boy or girl in their teens. Although I more than any of my people knew the truth of what those fragments represent, still, it was not quite real to me over the years that I wrote and spoke and protested about the missing and slaughtered children. Somewhere in me I still hoped that it was not true at all. But no longer.

It is undeniable to me now, and from my firm knowing the whole world will come to know.

And it all begins, always, like this: as a single collision of raw bones on flesh, like a light rippling outwards to burst open all the hidden places, and graves.” – Kevin Annett, The Mush Hole Missing Children Investigation.

The preceding is a quote from Kevin Annett’s blog, begun last year.

The following are a set of three documentary videos that I have posted individually before now. Together they form a thesis and an indictment that is greater than the sum of its parts. The names of that indictment are genocide, mind control and total disregard for the human being. It’s perpetrators are the members of the accepted powers of authority on planet Earth, North America particularly. The cases described here are more than individual instances of extreme inhumanity. They are the residue of the ethos held by institutions of power throughout history.


Conspiracy of Silence:

MK Ultra in Canada

Part 1:

Part 2:

Part 3:

Part 4: