“Deeper, deeper, somewhere in the deep there is a light*”

I think that the law of attraction is precisely the mystical equivalent of fundamentalist prosperity gospel. I think both of those things are cancers on genuinely transformative spiritualities.

Being depressed or having bad things happen to you doesn’t make you a bad person or less spiritual than anyone else. It’s a candy floss theology that has more to do with toys than wisdom or maturity. It will rot you out from the inside.

Everything my guides have ever taught me has been about transcending the image, the feeble shadow of reality that we carry within our minds. You are more than your mind. You are more than this time and place. Please do not become excessively engrossed because this is the momentary image before your eyes. Remember, listen, hold to what is felt and what cannot be silenced or ignored. Everything is waiting for you if you can loosen your grip just a little bit. End the cycle of insecurity that keeps you here in this one body, in this one time, in this one place. If you want to understand and transcend the conditions of your life I think you are going to be more enlightened by the lucid recollection of the conditions that brought you here than by trying to build a mansion on a foundation of sand and illusion.

* I stole that line from a Kate bush song.

Be a Lens and Light Will Come

Chris: You don’t give me much to hang onto, you know.

Guides: Because what you do must come from a place so deep within you that it can never be taken away.

Imagine: You open your eyes to one who is trapped in suffering. You move to help them. It comes as easily as the beating of your heart and the sigh of your breath. Your hands touch their chains and they begin to dissolve like wet tissue. Perfect awareness without thought, each action flowing, spontaneous. Their wounds are next. Lesions are washed and healed with light. Pathogens are drawn out and taken into custody. Curses are ended. Karma is healed. Their minds and memories restored to them. Their emotional trauma washed and allowed to heal. Their capacity for joy and the connection to the source of their being returned. Open a window to a place of safety and freedom beyond the reach of those who would harm them, and allow them, their family and friends to go there.

Flow through this until it is part of you. Each time it is different you will be different. Listen. Be a lens and light will come.

Anything you remember will be taken from you. You only get to keep what you become.

Guide Communication II

I was going to write this as a very technical post about all the different kinds of communication that I and my mother have dealt with over the years, layed out in chronological order. Very tidy, very technical. It would have completely missed the point.

The point is that, I can see and feel a conduit of light over my head. The conduit is a part of me and also of the force it links me to. Through that conduit I can see and feel something that I call the Music from Beyond the World. Rolling waves of translucent light and music that live in the space between all systems of reality and thought. I can hear and feel the music all the time, but I can make the choice to hear it more clearly if I need to or if it needs to tell me something. It speaks to me in words and emotions, pictures and sensations. Quite often I just know, as if I have heard a subtle language of meaning, without words.

In the comments to my last post I referred you to my technical writing and video on communication and muscle testing. All of that is still accurate, but in this post I am going to refer you to another kind of experience. What happened in that parking lot was another kind of communication, and possibly a much better description of how it is usually experienced than anything I could write about muscle testing or the subtle states of the mind. On that day my guides were with me, though they were not the centre of the experience, they wanted me to learn and I did. I lived a set of experiences that altogether changed me and communicated with a depth that no words could have for me in any normal state.

The reason that this post is alive instead of being an operators manual is because my guides took me through an experience. My second paragraph was written almost without thought. The experience just flowed down through my hands, through the keys. It was like being awash in light and something new as well. I felt intense heat and warmth on top of my head, as if fingers of this light were reaching down through me. I could see this light coursing through me, but the warmth was in dollar sized patches on the surface of my head. The physical sensation is the least important thing to me, a side effect of something far more challenging, but I can still be surprised when this becomes so real, beyond the phantoms I could try to pretend weren’t there.

I hope this does justice to the questions and to the reality. I will answer any more specific questions as best I can, but this is the truest way I could answer in the abstract.

Passing Visions

“Your present systems of government bear no reality.”

Or at least that is the verbalization of what I was experiencing with the same kind of reality that I would feel gravity, or the presence of my own body. “But they have a military and police. If I don’t pay my taxes they will put me in jail.” I told my guides, not understanding how what I was feeling could be so literally true. They replied “That is force, not truth. It has no bearing on their reality.” I realized then that I was going to lose this direct experience in a few moments. I would no longer be able to feel it like gravity, or my own body. It would be an abstract thing of memory, removed from my present moment. I begged my guides “Please let me keep this. How am I going to explain this to anyone if I can’t feel it anymore?” They didn’t say anything, but radiated the knowledge that everything would be alright. Almost everyone loses these moments, and then they just need to do the best they can with what they have.

Raven’s Eye Who is the Bowl of the World

Raven’s Eye Who is the Bowl of the World landed on my skull. It was cleft apart and he pulled a writhing grub from the pile of brain inside. He flew over the great river, which I may now see because I am the grub (as well as the man) and he dropped me into its vastness.

“PULL A THREAD FROM IT’S FLOWING CURRENTS”

“THAT’S IT. DON’T LET IT TANGLE.”

“LAY IT INTO THE DARKNESS HERE.”

“WHERE THE NEW LINE MEETS THE END OF THE OLD LINE, MOVE YOUR HANDS LIKE THIS. NOT YOUR PHYSICAL ONES. JUST HERE.”

That was how I learned to weave new timelines.

He asked me to show you.

Where I’m Trying to Be

It’s not good or right, or wrong, for that matter. It’s just where I need to be right now, particularly when I work and when I am being worked on.

Semi-explanation: Stepping Out of the Way

Introduction To Muscle Testing for Communication with Non-physical Beings

This is a link to my original written description of this technique.

Physical Work

Six months ago, near the beginning of July, I asked to open and align myself with what I now refer to as the Music from Beyond the World. Since that time I have been undergoing nearly continuous alteration to my physical systems. I’ve talked about this before in terms of the work that was being done on my ears, neck and throat. This work as progressed to include my spine, ribs, lungs, stomach and I suspect my heart. This work will occur whenever I clear my thoughts and allow the energy to flow. Waves of energy and muscle contraction will pass through my body in ways that I could not consciously control if I wished to. The waves of muscle contraction include my sinuses and eustachian tubes, as well as other muscle systems that I have very little or no conscious control over. I suspect my cranio-sacral tissue and mesenteries are included in these contractions. I will also be guided to move my skeletal muscles in very finely tuned and controlled ways. The rapid neck movements are an example I have described previously. The guided movements have taken on many other forms that I have not talked about, such as almost dance-like movements which adjust my spine and stomach. More recently my arms will be guided in motions that I can only describe as waving or spiraling. The arm motions stress or work on joints and tendons that see very little action, so I reach my limit relatively quickly.

The process of physical adjustment has been maddeningly slow for me. I have gotten into trouble several times by allowing too much work to be done too quickly. There have been very few external physical changes to mark my progress. Only a slight increase in the symmetry of my face.

The most noticeable changes have been internal. My throat muscles have shifted so that I can produce tones I was never able to reach before. Along with this change I have been guided to use these tones in my healing work with other people. I have seen and heard other healers use sound and tones, but I have no training and would never have tried to copy what I have heard others do. I just started doing this over the course of several weeks. There was no decision or intent. Another internal change is to the structure of my neck muscles and bones. I can literally shake my head and body like a dog drying itself. Before I began this process I would have strained something immediately if I tried that.

I do not know what the ultimate result of this process will be. I know that I am being cleared of that which limits the flow of energy in my body and that the work I am doing will allow me to transmit energy, and the energy of the music in particular, more clearly, but beyond that I do not know.

One of the reasons my rate of posting has decreased here is that it is very difficult, and not always helpful to others, for me to write about the physical process. It’s long term and very repetitive, much like an exercise regime.

The Process of Release

I open my mouth and my breath begins to wrack as if I have been sobbing. Soon this eases and a tone emerges from the depths of my throat. It is the essence of the sound that a crying person releases just before they are rendered incapable of making any sound at all. The tone touches something in my stomach and it feels as if this object of pain is being lifted out of me. As it rises out of me a weight lifts and my eyes moisten. The tone ebbs. I have thought of nothing and I am not sad, yet I feel as if I have been crying for a long time. I am left to recover.

Neck Adjustment

Over the past few days the Music from Beyond the World has shifted from adjustments in my ears, throat and skills bones to my neck muscles. When I allow the Music to guide the process, my head will rock up and down, sometimes slowly, but usually increasing to a rapid, almost spasm like speed. At the same time the fine control of the force results in muscles being adjusted and loosened. Even if I could consciously produce a similar motion of my head, I’m sure I would hurt my neck almost immediately, but I can allow these motions to progress for hours with fatigue and very short lived soreness as the only negative results. The only negative is that the motion does tire me after a prolonged period and it does make it hard to work on other things while I allow it to happen.