So i guess my question is… who can be trusted? are the elite there to take us into the “new world order” or are they really the good guys? how can anyone really know because why would they tell us? all I know is what I experience. and if my logic is right… i must be in some other world. because humans can read my mind .. everywhere i go. how could they JUST read MY mind and no one else s? that doesn’t make sense. and i don’t see how it could just be a coincidence because it happens every second. it just happened right now! yeah I heard a loud bang because I felt insecure in what I was thinking and writing just now. this happens constantly. I will have an unsure thought and the wind will suddenly start blowing really hard when there wasn’t so much as a breeze to begin with.

so is it possible that I am in some kind of matrix? and if so then why are they keeping me here? what do they have to gain? do they feed of off negative emotions and that’s why they don’t just kill me? because I would be better off dead with no conscious mind or soul left inside of me yes I am extremely depressed… and anti depressants help a little… but anti-psychotics always make my symptoms worse. and Effexor only helps so much because this IS my reality so it can never just go away.

I guess I’m not really sure what I am trying to say but I had to respond because if comforts me greatly to know that there are others like myself out there. I hope. and there is really no way to know if you can really be trusted or if you too are just a part of this dream state they put me in…

From what you have described in you comments and from what I read on your blog, you do have experiences that are consistent with mixed human and non-human ancestry. The presence of alien ancestry is actually fairly common and diverse in human beings, but only in a smaller number of cases is that ancestry activated and of interest to non-human beings.

RH- blood type and some other factors can be indicative of reptilian lineage, but there are many people with reptilian ancestry who do not manifest these indicators. There are also many kinds of non-human beings that a human can be related to, not to mention other reasons that those beings might be present in someone’s life. I don’t have the RH- blood type, but having reptilian and other forms of non-human ancestry has been a central part of my process of healing and self discovery.

In my experiences, psychic, spiritual and alien phenomena rarely exist in isolation from one another. One of the strongest feelings that many people who have the potential for spiritual and psychic development experience is social and inter-personal anxiety. This exists on a spectrum from mild discomfort to full blown schizophrenic paranoia. The causation for these feelings is a combination, the first part of which is that when you have psychic or spiritual development occurring you will feel powerful emotions and sensations just from looking at or thinking about other people. The second part is the negative energies, connection and entities that development brings to the surface. Most people going through this process have to traverse and overcome these negatives and blocks. If they are not or cannot be overcome, then spiritual awakening and development manifests as mental and physical disease.

The most important advice I can give to you is that you have the power to change the emotional and spiritual quality of your life and the universe that you live in. This has nothing to do with denying the truth of your experience or the power of positive thinking. It has to do with a choice about whether a person allows negative, destructive emotions and pain to control them, or if they choose to use their capacity for joy, love and compassion as a path to a better life. Making that choice a difficult process that has to be made everyday. It’s hard for me, and I am thankful that I was able to make it when the alternative has either destroyed or curtailed the lives of those close to me.

I hope my answers have helped as much as they can. Please feel free to ask about anything else you would like.

Take care and good luck.

yours truly, Multi

Recently I met Seth (the name was spelt like this in my dream). Bwoi, he’s a hard-ass, go-getter who doesn’t take excuses. He gave me a long list of ‘what must be done’ and then said, “NO EXCUSES”! He will be working with me it seems like permanently. He instructed me on how to connect with him and that I should use RED to call him in. He said he represents RED. Here goes another journey with a new guide. Thank you Seth for making your presence known to me and for guiding and guarding me in the physical. I so look forward to our divine friendship and what’s to come.

Patricia
of the Hatha Girls

Breathing helps. A thought floats by that is seductive, some will seize it to satisfy their craving, some will reject it, trying to avoid the pain it may cause them. I try to focus on allowing my breath. The thought will attend to itself, or you will see through it to what lies within.

Allowing your breath to come isn’t doing something. Is the absence of effort and the presence of life, but for something that is the absence of effort it can be very hard. It has great power. It does for me at least.

Thanks, this is a really helpful observation. I have trouble with the seduction and beguilement, where people often become infatuated with an image of who they think I am, and their reactions play to my ego and reinforce the need to act in a way that pleases them. That usually doesn’t end well. I will focus more on “neither seeking nor rejecting” and let things develop naturally.